Tuesday, September 20, 2011

i guess you don't need a reason to be sad either.

opened up my heart
4:36 PM

Sunday, November 7, 2010

it hurts the most to know that you cannot help.

your tears fall while you stand there crying,
crying your heart out for something that you're unable to do.

opened up my heart
10:01 PM

Saturday, October 16, 2010

to hurt someone whom you wish to make smile
the feeling must be very painful.

being true to yourself.
to love more than one person cannot be a sin. family and friends are abundant, after all.
or can it?

opened up my heart
2:55 PM

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

and sometimes it's not even that.

if i had my say, you'd be a stupid little puppy in love.

don't you get it?
the world's not perfect like you think it is.
life's not smooth like you were told to believe.
and people aren't right for you just because they're nice.

snap out of it.
this world's not the place for you, this isn't where you're supposed to be.
happiness isn't something you can get so easily, and love?
love just doesn't exist here.

it's just a word to make everyone feel better, just a term of comfort, to convince you that you've found joy in life.
to cure the world of its deprived state, to trick us into believing that something as perfect as love exists.
to lift our hearts, to make us feel and hope and dream.

but perhaps we were never born with it.
ought not to believe in it because we'll never be able to find it here.

puppy love, huh.

opened up my heart
5:29 PM

Thursday, July 15, 2010

you have no idea what you're doing, do you?

to see, to read, to hear, to know, to understand what a person is feeling. it might be harder than you think.

when you realise that life's about so many more incomprehensible matters that humans can hardly decipher, you start to understand the secrets that the world holds.

do you believe in god? or in science? do you believe in anything at all?
do you believe in yourself? do you believe in miracles?
do you believe that things can happen without a reason?
do you believe in art? in beauty? or in knowledge? intelligence?
what about revenge, karma, retribution?

what do people believe in?

just a few questions for you, the reader, to ponder on. before i make a move, that is.

being engulfed by life the way it is - wild and dark and menacing, yet fun, exciting and unexpected.

opened up my heart
12:56 AM

Saturday, July 3, 2010

it's one of those times.

when you get too close to people too quickly, when you're speeding on a bike and realise that you're going to crash.

then you back out as fast as possible, wanting to run away, wanting to pretend that it never happened. wishing so hard that everything had never happened, trying to erase all your memories. to go back to the beginning. stretching the thin wire of relationship as far as it can go and further, but never able to break it.

never able to break away from your past.

i'm glad i didn't delete this blog, honestly. it's time to show the world the truth, as the world needs to know it, as only it can be shown.

opened up my heart
2:54 PM

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

i haven't posted for ages, but it doesn't mean that i've forgotten.

opened up my heart
3:24 PM

Thursday, January 21, 2010

i suddenly realised how long i've been gone. quite understandably, i thought about deleting this blog, but when i read through it, i decided that i shouldn't after all. now i'm back again and hopefully to stay. a lot has happened since my last post, but it's such a handful i don't think i can ever put them down in words. after all, some things are best experienced by the heart. emotions overflowing your heart that no words can describe.

it would appear that i'm running on countdown mode. yet again. and there are oh-so-many things still undone. debts to settle, misunderstandings to clear, appreciation to be said aloud. friendships to bid farewell to, a new life to welcome. and yes, i mean it when i say bidding farewell to those friendships. after all, no matter what you think, it's not possible to remain such good friends without the determination to do so. once the determination is gone, all is lost. rather cliche too, no? but logical.

looking on the bright side, there are, of course, good things to celebrate too. my rekindled passion for music, for one. it wasn't easy, and it won't be either to keep that passion. when certain things become requisites, that's when passion flies out of the window. and it becomes just another something that you have to do. that's what requisites can do to you. and your life, for that matter.

i have to admit that i'm on the losing side. it's hard to win time. no matter how hard you want time to freeze, it doesn't happen. right now that's what i want. i have too many things to do, too many things to lose if time flies past again. but just thinking this doesn't stop it from happening. if i want to counter time, i have to start moving. against it or with it, does it even matter? every week i see someone losing to time, and someone else rushing for time. i don't want to be like that. but time is no easy friend, i'll warn you first.

i greatly admire musicians. after all, how can i not do so? oh, the beauty of music.

opened up my heart
4:18 PM

Sunday, July 19, 2009

本人竟然自愿说要帮忙本人的班做一样事情
一定是疯了
由于本人通常不会做这些事情的
因此这次真的对自己觉得很意外

[edited out]

in any case
i do not want to hear about death from someone
who has no idea about it either.

tell me about it after you have died
only then will i listen.

而就算你只是好心想教我更多事情
也轮不到你来教我
如果我要学就会从家长们学
不用你来插手

opened up my heart
11:20 PM

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

growing up is such torture.

it changes your dreams into winged creatures
that take flight and soar far away
and every step you take towards them
they fly higher and further than ever
escaping from the clutches of your hands.

one mistake made is a deadly error.

it smashes your hopes into bits and pieces
with surprising strength and power
forces you to rethink every step taken
then regret efforts that cost a lifetime
leaving you as nothing but an empty shell.

an uncontrolled imagination can kill.

it brings you to the depths of hell
to feel the pain and hurt and the fire
then buried under layers of soil
traps you without air nor light
free to take a ride on the slow death coaster.

opened up my heart
9:48 PM

Sunday, May 31, 2009

life is but a game.
and yet, it's probably the most fun game you'll ever get to play.
but that's only if you make it fun.

what makes this game fun?
the rules are for you to decide.
the story is told by you.
and you can control the characters.

it might not seem this way to you.
'i have to go to school because my parents say so.'
'i have to go to work to earn money for my family.'
maybe it's something like that.

but those are merely the settings for your game.
every game needs a base, something for us to build on.
what we don't notice sometimes,
are the many other things we can do to change this game.

instead of complaining about it,
why not use this base and start creating your game?

who cares if i got a rubbish dump,
because throughout this game, i'm going to change it,
and design my very own castle in its place.

give me a piece of empty land,
and i'll travel far and wide to find water and seeds,
then return to plant my very own forest.

palaces, mansions, bungalows,
or just a simple one-room unit.
forest, grassland, desert,
sun or rain, perhaps even snow.

with our abilities and talents,
the help of our loved ones,
and the courage and determination to succeed.

let's create a new game,
and our very own world to step into.

opened up my heart
4:38 PM

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

失望是避免不了的
especially if you don't even work hard for anything.

perhaps, if you try to change, just by a little bit everyday, you'll get there. you'll get to your goal in the end.
so the question now is, are you even trying?

crying because of failure can't save you. it's useless, a complete waste of time and energy.
instead of breaking down, instead of running away, why not face up to it?

i'll be there to help you whenever you need me.
just remember that before you reach your goal, you need to take the first step there.
you can hold on to me if you think you might fall, but in the end, only you can decide to take that first step towards your goals.
i can help you, but can you help yourself? otherwise, everything would be pointless.

go on, take that step.
and then, slowly, take another step.
just like that, step after step, keep on going.
and know that i'll always be walking beside you.

opened up my heart
11:30 PM

Monday, May 11, 2009

hello there.

first thing's first. profile, right?
refer to the sidebar please, thank you.
not much time to add on to my profile too much, so i'll leave it at that for now. will update my profile and wishlist the next time.

as the first post in this blog, i would like to share a quote.

"You don't need a reason to be happy."

perhaps that is where my blog title originated from. honestly, i have no idea. apart from that, this quote means a lot to me right now. it's value might drop over the years, but that's beside the point.

明明知道不能
明明很清楚自己不可能
但却还是做到了
为什么呢?

难道会永远这样地下去
什么事实都不改变地
像一个失败者
在生命里不再成功了吗?

opened up my heart
9:40 PM

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